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I have been wanting to write a blog for a long time now, but I have had trouble trying to come up with what to write about.

Should I do a recipe? Should I write about current trends? My mind went blank…

I really did not know what to write about and I honestly have not had time to even sit down and begin to even type something out.

So, I begin to just be honest with myself and I sat down and I wrote about how I felt because quite frankly I was really beginning to find myself stuck between a rock and a hard place.

In this current moment. In my life.

I wrote about how my friends are currently feeling. I wrote about my family. I wrote about my career and my future. I wrote about my wants and my needs as well as my friends wants and needs. I wrote about everything I could think of. I wanted to clear my head and have a fresh mindset.

I mean… after-all, September is my favorite month, so why not start fresh. Am I right? (;

BUT! In doing all of this, I realized that no one has anything figured out. And that is ok.

I may have dropped everything I had ever known behind, ran away to Wyoming in May, realized I hated what I was doing 1 month in, quit the job I had, moved out, found something different, moved in to basically a summer camp with complete strangers that had already known each-other for six weeks, and now I had become the weird “new girl”. But what else could I have done when I was already 1,000+ miles away from home? I didn’t want to just give up and come crawling back to Mississippi where I had no job lined up and live in the house I grew up in.

So, to be optimistic and look at the positive side of things, I took that as a learning experience and now I am working 3 jobs, building my resume, living INSIDE of a National Park, and hardly paying anything for my living expenses.

Yeah, I know that I run away from my problems. I will admit it. I ran away to Wyoming to find happiness and I didn’t immediately find it. Maybe it is within us and we cannot go searching for it. Maybe it takes time to find our happiness and we cannot establish it in a certain town, person, etc. but it is within ourselves alone. And some of you may be reading this and be like ,”duh!”.. But call me Forest Gump because I run from things and I took off like I was looking for hidden treasure.

But back to the rock and the hard place. No one prepares you for the post-college funk and no one talks about it. Typically, all of your friends get scattered all across the United States. Some are still doing school, some are working 9-5 everyday. Your mom is still trying to encourage and help you find a job 4 months after graduation, and you still feel like your college town is the place you should call “home”. But in reality you are mentally and physically stuck between a rock and a hard place because home is a cabin in Moose, Wyoming currently, but only for 6 more weeks… And then what??? Move back in with your mom? Work at the coffee shop job that you have had since the beginning of college? I’m honestly not quite sure in the slightest sense.

I don’t know what the future holds. I know that my friends don’t know either. But I do know that we all are feeling similar in the sense that we all don’t know what the next day will bring and post-college life is a weird, weird transition into the beginnings of adulthood. And none of us asked, volunteered, or wanted to be here in the adulthood that we are inevitably entering. But to be honest, there is no way to possibly prepare yourself for what life will look like after college and no tarot card or psychic can assure you of your future either…

What is important is:

• Staying in touch with your friends
• Having your priorities in line
• Maintaining a healthy diet and exercising regularly
  • (The freshman 15 might be a thing, but no one warns you of the post-college 15)
• Calling your family often!!!
• Using LinkedIn like it is Instagram
• Sometimes not really caring what other people are doing
  • Yes, good for them! But don’t beat yourself up if Suzy Jane is in Europe and posting all over social media about it or if Johnny Bravo just got a great job offer with an awesome company. That is indeed AWESOME, but your time will come, too.
• Getting outside and not being on your computer all day
• Continuously be planning or looking forward to your next adventure!

Anyways, happy SEPTEMBER and if you find yourself between a rock and a hard place, I am sure the person to the right of you does too. Just take deep breathes, get a coffee, go on a hike, read a book, take a bubble bath. We are all in this together!